The End ?

So it has been over a month since I became Miss Blue's Chastity Slut and the final lesson is here. Miss Blue gave me a choice. I could either end the training and my time in chastity by enjoying a nice orgasm in front of a mirror with my panties at my knees and would have to cum in to my hand and lick it afterwards. Or I could choose to prolong my chastity and not be allowed to cum unless it was a part of Akasha's next training.

I decided to go ahead and end my time in chastity and enjoy an orgasm. I choose this in part because I just really wanted to have an orgasm, and in large part because the next few months will be busy for me and I may not be able to participate in Akasha's next training. I would like to thank Miss Blue for a marvelous training which has certainly repeaked my interest in chastity, both voluntary and enforced with a device.

Dance Fever

Ok the latest task for Miss Blue was to take some consecutive pictures showing off my best dance moves. Seeing as how I can't dance and have to use the camera's self timer to take pictures. That is the harder challenge for me on this one. I tried using the camera's burst function and doing whatever dance moves came to mind while it went off. Not sure what exactly I was trying to do, but here it is anyway.

Facing Fears

The newest lesson included instructions from Miss Blue to post on here about a fear I have faced and how I dealt with it. I'm not very good at recalling past experiences or describing much of anything, but here we go. I guess I could say that while I had been fascinated with elements of BDSM for about 10 years now, it was only in the last 3 that I have been able to actually perform tasks for dominant women. One of the areas that has always been of interest was CBT. So I guess when I first got a chance to try it out for myself I was a little scared of the unknown. I didn't know what I was getting into, but knew it was something I just had to try. So while participating in a bdsm forum where subs are given tasks or can select from some that Dommes have already designed, I just knew I had to go for it and start with a task that involves cbt. It didn't involve much. She had me tie a rope around my balls that then whent back behind my neck and I had to do some situps with it attached that way. Every time I went back my balls were tightly pulled. As for facing fear I just had to convince myself that since others had already done it that it wouldn't cause any long term damage and that I had nothing to fear. Once I got through it I realized how much I enjoy it and now I always enjoy a little CBT in my BDSM play.

What it Feels Like to Cum

Miss Blue has asked that I try to describe what it feels like to cum to see if I had forgotten in the 3 weeks that I have not been allowed to touch her cock. Description is not one of my strong suits, but I'll try anyway. For me an orgasm feels like a complete release of excess energy. As I get close to cumming it feels like my entire body just tenses up and then explodes and a great release. After the sensation passes through my entire body becomes very relaxed and any tension has gone away.

What I'd Do Just to Cum

In Lesson 8 Miss Blue has instructed that I write a paragraph here about what I would be willing to do just for the privilege of being able to cum like a slut with my legs over my head. It's been almost 3 full weeks since I had my last orgasm and I'm to the point where I would do almost anything if Miss Blue would let me play with her property and enjoy an orgasm that ends in true slut fashion with my cum on my face. I'd definitely let her take a strap on and use it on my inexperienced sissy pussy. The thought of sucking a real cock off right now also sounds pretty good if it would mean that I could have an orgasm of my own afterwords. I can't wait to find out what all Miss Blue comes up with for the rest of the training. I see that the next lesson has been posted early and that there will be another chat on Thursday. Unfortunately I have to work late again on Thursday and will miss it again. It seems that I have to close every Thursday recently meaning I haven't been able to attend many of the chat sessions with Mistress Akasha, Miss Blue, and Miss Eva and I'm yet to even meet Mistress Lilyana although I do follow her twitter and her blog.

Tucked Away

The 7th lesson from Miss Blue started with a tough task of actually playing with her property for 10 whole minutes without cumming. I survived it without an accident but it was hard to hold back and even harder to stop when the 10 minutes were up. Part of me just wanted to keep going and enjoy a nice hard orgasm, but I've came this far I want to see it all the way through. Hopefully at the end it will prove to be the right decision as I continue to please Miss Blue.

With the 10 minute session done and a cold shower in the books, it was off to buy some pink bikini panties. Since the nearest Victoria's Secret is a 90 minute drive, I had to settle for just going to the local Walmart, not any other options here without an extended drive. Once I returned it was time to tuck away Miss Blue's property to give a smooth appearance in my new panties. It wasn't too hard to do and I've actually looked into it before, but will likely never be completely satisfied.

With that out of the way it was time for a bubble bath, a shave, and a naked picture just for Miss Blue.

Level of Denial

So we are closing in on 2 full weeks since I had my last orgasm and I turned the ownership of my cock to Miss Blue. For the last few days she has required that I take part in at least 40 minutes of viewing some of my favorite masturbation material without being allowed to touch her property. At this point I am very aroused and eagerly awaiting every lesson from Miss Blue. Her last lesson got me really excited when she talked about getting her pussy good and fucked while I was not allowed to touch her property. As I take part in each day's 40 minutes of torture it is getting harder and harder to resist just taking the home made cock prison off and having a nice orgasm, but it is also such a turn on to let someone else have complete control of my sexual release. I can't wait until the next lesson is posted.